32/52 – selfie, collage and words to live byPosted by Sand on May 6, 2013 in 52 week photo challenge, Art, Art therapy, Fibromyalgia | 4 comments
I managed to do a blog post for the Nourish Creativity blog on Friday, so was hopeful that I could write something to go with this weeks photo. So I waited to feel able to write…but it’s not happening. Hormones/fatigue/pain etc are all taking their toll right now and I’m having to retreat to cope with it all. It happens every once in a while, like a kind of sensory overload – I have to limit the incoming data because I just can’t cope with it all. I don’t think it’s depression…but, really, I suppose the reasons are unimportant. It is what it is.
I found myself folding some scrap paper into a little book, partly to see if the shape of the paper would work. Then I doodled in it – mostly because I don’t quite know what to do with myself. I’m too tired to watch TV, my eyes are too sore to read…and its too early to go back to bed because of the time that I need to take my last meds of the day. Here’s my doodle book;
I read this blog for the first time this week, and this paragraph perfectly put into words what I think I mean by sensory overload,
“Because when you’re chronically ill… a bug is just like Special Sauce on that Hamburger of Constant Pain. And because I’m in constant pain, I have zero immunity. It uses so much energy for me to be ill, I’ve got nothing left. And because of my pain meds and various reactions to chemicals, there isn’t much for me to turn to when I catch something. ”
I ended up at this blog because of her post about depression.
Here’s an article about a diet for neurological disorders. I think a friend sent it…or it may have come from one of the way too many blogs that I subscribe to…I’m going to have to ruthlessly whittle these down. I can’t cope with them all. Can’t seem to cope with much at all at the moment.
Last night I made this collage on my phone.
…and this week’s (well, last week’s) photo is another selfie;